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Seekers and Knowers

I have had a terrible head cold the past two days and have had great difficulty sleeping, so have been meditating and just “being”, not trying to force anything, and doing my best to accept my current “no so pleasant” health condition.  I know it is part of the panchakarma cleansing process, but that doesn’t make it any less uncomfortable.

While meditating, I was suddenly drawn to some notes I had written several months ago, while still at home in Israel.  And the one file I was drawn to, was actually written exactly 4 years ago, in Rishikesh, ON THIS EXACT DATE: February 22nd!!

This could not be coincidence, and so have decided to post it once again.  This issue of “seekers” has come up many times during this trip, and I once again had need to relate to the issue from my personal point of view.  The channeling below was exactly what I needed to hear, once again, to encourage me to always move forward in the way I feel is best for me.  I do my utmost to do that, but there are times when we need supportive words….I have been lovingly given these words again and share them here with you.

 

…find myself always being different from the travelers I meet. In McLeod, I am one of the few people who spend any length of time there who is not either an aspiring or already practicing Buddhist. Now I find in Rishikesh that I am the only person I’ve met so far who is not either looking for the perfect Yoga teacher, the Swami who will bring them enlightenment, the perfect Ayurveda doctor or the ultimate massage. Everyone seems to be searching for something…on some kind of pilgrimage…where is the best puja on the Ganga, the best Thali, the best mountain trail, the most beautiful temple. I find no need for any of these things and began to wonder if something is wrong with me. am I just too lazy to bother?

Or is it something deeper…and then I woke up to meditate and my guides came to me really loud and clear for the first time in many many months and the following was said:

You are neither practicing Buddhist in Dharamsala nor yoga student in Rishikesh. You are not a seeker. Others are seeking. YOU KNOW. Relax into that KNOWING. JUST BE.

Your only quest is inward. Everything you need is already there. The place is unimportant…it is just a means for you to easily access what is already KNOWN to you.

Relax into it. Let it flow.

You are blessed…We love You.

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Understanding Loss – Part 3 – An Exercise in Remembering, Forgiving and Release

I have been doing much work going through this process mentioned in the two previous posts here from India, and find that most of my insights are much too personal for me to easily share them.  Much is painful, much is insightful leading to understanding which in turn leads to forgiveness and release, and this is extremely cathartic. I would like to share one of the exercises I have been guided to do, and which I found extremely cleansing, as long as I was completely honest with myself in performing the exercise.  Meaning, no expectations, no preconceived idea about the outcome,etc.  Total honesty.  This is not as easy as it sounds and I found myself stopping myself several times to get back to the place of honesty before continuing.

It is actually fairly simple sounding to do.  But a very good way of releasing lingering negativity regarding loved ones who have passed over.   As the passing which prompted the process in the first place was that of my mother, I began the exercise with her, but soon found myself working with my father as well.

Simply go back into your memory “bank”, looking for the earliest “deposits” you can find, and see how many pleasant and joyful recollections you have and how many unpleasant or painful ones you have in regard to the person you are working with at the moment. At first it may seem one sided, in either direction.  Do not judge or take things personally.  Do your best to be objective about what you are reliving. Ever so slowly, more and more “deposits” will surface, each becoming more and more clear and detailed.  This maybe be painful, may cause you anger or regret, may be joyful, may even be surprising…just let it all flow. Try not to “be” yourself as the child you were in each memory (or even adult-doesn’t matter), but rather see each event unfold as an impartial observer.When you feel there are no more memories left in the “bank” to review, simply ask that all be released back to the Universe as energies of love and light, send unconditional love to the person who has passed, as well as to yourself, and feel the deep sense of lightness this process has given you…cleansing, forgiveness and closure.

I am completely surprised at how the process has been working for me, especially at the intensity of the memories once they began to reveal themselves.  Also surprised at the types of memories which arose.  At first, the most powerful ones were kind of what I expected to find when dealing with a particular person, but slowly, the expectations became less, as did the preconceptions, and many other types of memories surfaced.  This is why I ask you to at least try to commence this exercise from a place of neutrality and non-judgement, with no expectations, if at all possible.

I’d love to hear from anyone who decides to try this…I am finding it extremely interesting as I continue working with it, and find it bringing me lovely feelings of release and lightness.

With love light and JOY

Jane

 

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Below are two links to posts on my India Journal which have relevance here as well…just follow the links for further details.
With love from Rishikesh, India
Jane

Creating Reality and Contentment

Messages and Understanding

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END OF THE DARK AGES

I will try to make this as short and to the point as possible before getting to the main reason for this post. You will simply need some recent background information to give you any sort of understanding about what I am writing about.

I have been struggling for years, for probably most of my life, a completely irrational fear of being alone in the dark in a place I am not familiar with mainly(not sleeping in the dark because then I would be in my own familiar bed and so this never frightened me). Not only in the dark, but even traveling alone to a new place, a place I’d never been before, was always so frightening that it basically paralyzed me and limited by activities in many ways for many years. I had gotten to the point where I had completely stopped driving to new places in my car, and pre4tty much stopped going out at night unless someone came to pick me up.
How I traveled to India on my own is still a mystery which remains unsolved! I WAS overwhelmed with fear the first time I did it, but I did it!

After returning from India last Spring, I had decided to tackle
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Living in India 2009– How a Dream Becomes a Reality

So many people have asked me how I have managed to arrange my life so that I can spend 6 months a year in India, that I’ve decided to write about it as there hopefully are lessons for others to learn from this as well.

I have done some thinking about the whole concept of turning dreams into reality. It is a fairly simple concept actually, but seeing it truly work is the amazing part. When we have a focused intention and can visualize it, and then release it completely to God and the Universe, our new reality begins to be created for us. The catch here is that we must TOTALLY release it, in complete Faith, knowing that it will be taken care of. The “how’s” are well beyond our human capabilities to imagine.

If we continue to “second-guess” the wisdom of the Universe, or mix fear into the equation, we sabotage the final outcome.

Asking each day for the best possible outcome to our prayers, our dreams, for our Higher Good and the Higher Good of all who come in contact with us, on all levels – asking for openness to accept and embrace ALL that comes our way in COMPLETE FREEDOM FROM FEAR – asking for the wisdom to “hear” all the messages we receive – is all we need to do to insure the successful manifestation of our dreams into reality.

In 2001, at the age of 54, when I quit my high paying job in hi-tech (more…)

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November 15, 2008 – The Second Message in a Dream and a New Poem

Going with the Flow

Going with the Flow

I continue to have vivid dreams which stay with me after waking up. Last night I had a very long dream but the main part involved my taking a journey in a canoe on a body of quiet water, seemingly with no current. And have no paddles. I was just gently moved along by an unknown force to wherever it was I had to get to. that also unknown to me. But I felt myself, in the dream, completely at peace and enjoying the journey (water plays a big role in many of my messages, and my poetry as well (see poetry page on upper toolbar as well as the poem at the end of this post which I wrote one day sitting along the Ganga).

When I finally got to a place where I met other people., including Kobi, my car mechanic (!), I found myself welcomed by all and feeling at home. Don’t know where I was and even found my car which was sparkling clean both inside and out – including all mechanical parts – spotless – like brand new. Kobi said he had nothing to do with the change…it arrived here like that [new car? Or just a message that a solution to the car issue is already in place at the end of whatever this journey is?]

More details:
The canoe was made of soft material, almost enveloping me but still keeping the physical form of a canoe while being flexible enough to bend and move with the flow of the water. Even able to shield me from getting wet when there were splashes of water along the journey. Bending its nose left and right to go around bends…and me just sitting there completely at ease all the time.

There are lots of interpretations for this dream, and one could simply be a message about my car problem, or just a message telling me that I am being gently moved along and protected through my journey wherever it is taking me…and to allow myself to gently flow with it… or Dr. Arora’s interpretation which I also like.

The beautiful clean car, sparkling like new, including all internal mechanical parts, simply represents my body, inside and out, after the cleansing and rejuvenation of panchakarma!!

And that’s it for this dream.

And here is the latest “water poem”:

Sound – flowing, moving with it the sacred energies of Ma Ganga.
Sound – vibrating and cleansing with its subtle but powerful rhythm.
Water – rushing over rocks, its voice vitalizing the languid flow of the river.
Water – transforming forceful turmoil into calm serenity to my soul.

Calming the chattering of my mind and bringing a hypnotic tranquility

going-with-the-flow21Love
Jane

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November 9, 2008 – Further Insights and Final Cleansing Of Past Issues

Sun Setting on the Past

Sun Setting on the Past

The process continues…(Please read the previous post if you have not already done so to understand this one)…it is now the next day and have had many more insights – some I will keep for my private journals, but will share enough to allow others to gain insights from this as well.

This morning came a full disclosure to myself. What was revealed to me after 23 years of being completely unaware of these feelings and issues! Really full understanding of what I haven’t admitted to myself all these years. I would have wanted more than anything else to have stayed married – but I was not given the opportunity or option. Instead of working WITH me to help me at the time I most needed it, he did everything possible to push me further and further away. The person I had taken care of so lovingly for over 20 years, who I had never asked anything of – attuning myself to his needs in all things – had deserted me in my time of deepest need. Cruelly pushing me away in every way possible when he should have been protecting and cherishing me – helping me to move through my Dark Night. While I desperately clung to hope as a drowning victim does to a life raft, he pulled this from my grip as well, leaving me to go under along – slowly sinking. I was forced to rip apart a family which would never fully recover the wounds inflicted on it – as a unit and as individuals.

I am sure I could have gotten to the same place in my life that I am today WITHOUT having to break up my home, if he had only been willing and able to work along with me for a few years until I found my path. I COULD have done it differently if I had been given the opportunity. And I now know that this frustration, so long repressed was what caused this anger to well up in me after being held back by illusion for so many years. . This realization is a cause for profound sadness and grief– but I will move forward. What’s done is done and there is a reason for this as well. That reason is still to be discovered! I will do my best to be patient but I joyfully look forward to finding out what it is!

It is important to understand that I am not seeking to “place blame”, for there is no place for that in our lives. Just coming to terms with these hidden issues, and releasing them, is all that is necessary. And I have done that completely…feeling light and at peace with myself and everyone else connected with these issues. It is a true blessing!

There will be one more post with a truly lovely dream which reflects this final cleansing on all levels, but will leave that for a separate post.

Love
Jane

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