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Was directed to this post while reading my own random posts (which I do when guided to do so), and once again reminded of this important message (posted just 3 months ago)…and guided to repost it here as well. Would love to hear your thoughts as well. Enjoy!

Not In India

From this place of quiet contentment, this place of knowing and acceptance, the messages are always given the opportunity to find their way easily to my inner wisdom.

I have always found this clarity of vision while inIndia, but it has alluded me this year while here at home.  Channeled messages are always part of my sojourns in India, so receiving the following message early this morning, brought great comfort and joy into my life-more on this following the message:

You no longer need to strive. You have moved beyond the place of having to put so much constant effort into your continuing journey. After many years of hard work, you have earned the privilege of sitting back and enjoying the ride. You only need to allow yourself to flow, without resistance, wherever the current takes you.

If you can relax into this flow it will…

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The More You Give the More You Get!

I posted this recently on Not In India 2012 but felt the message important enough to repost here.  Enjoy! 🙂

The Casino

The Casino

I have written in the past, both on this blog and on my Mindfulness Journal, about Manifesting Dreams and Creating a New Reality. Much of what we talk about, and read about these days deals with the Laws of Attraction and attracting what we want into our lives. There are some very basic techniques about how to go about doing this. You can find innumerable posts, articles, videos, books, lectures, workshops etc. regarding this whole “business”.

But one thing which is very often overlooked, or not given enough attention, is the simple idea that “like attracts like” – meaning, if you live in a mode of want, if you worry about what you don’t have, and worry about what you do have but might not have tomorrow….if you count your pennies because you are afraid you may not have enough tomorrow, if you live “frugally” to insure your having enough “when”….then you are actually defeating the purpose. The more you live in fear of not having, the more you save for a rainy day, the more you count each penny you spend, the more you are “careful” with what you have, the more you will attract more of the same into your life. You will always be afraid and probably for the reason that you don’t have enough, you will never have enough for a rainy day, you will continue counting pennies because you will never have more than pennies to count, and you will never have “more”, rather you will continue to have ‘less”.

The story below is an example of how giving freely, even if you don’t have “enough”, of giving lovingly and without fear of “not having” what you need if you’ve given to someone else, of sharing what you have with a full heart, attracts even more into your life. People who live like this, even if it seems as if they have very little, will ALWAYS have what they need, whenever they need it. I can tell you this from personal experience as well. Once I got out of the “fear” mode and moved into the “free” mode, once I began giving lovingly, to others and myself, whenever I felt like it or needed to, I began experiencing all kinds of unexpected surprises of money finding its way into my life, free vacations coming my way, strange “coincidences” and of course no longer having to worry that I don’t have, or will not have, enough.

I recently posted the following on my Facebook page:

On my way to the train station and in the blink of an eye my travel plans have changed. As always, God and the Universe are looking out for me, and I have been sent an Amtrak ticket by an angel named M. so that I don’t have to travel by local commuter train where I would save $60 or more but would have to change trains, (I am carrying all my luggage) ,wait for trains and spend more than 2 hours riding what is less than a 1 hour actual trip. I am truly blessed! 😀

The angel was my cousin who I was going to visit and she lovingly paid for my Amtrak ticket, round trip, and did so with joy and happiness. Two days ago, she took me “just for fun” to a casino near her home. I just played out the $5 I was given as an incentive by the casino, and when I finished, she took over the machine I was playing, After a couple of minutes of play, SHE WON $1000!!!!. And that is how it works!

The Winnings

The Winnings

Give Lovingly and Joyfully to Yourself and Others!

Be Happy About the Money You Spend, on yourself and others!

Believe that You Are Deserving of an Abundant Life

THE MORE YOU GIVE THE MORE YOU GET!

with love light and JOY

Jane

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Seekers and Knowers

I have had a terrible head cold the past two days and have had great difficulty sleeping, so have been meditating and just “being”, not trying to force anything, and doing my best to accept my current “no so pleasant” health condition.  I know it is part of the panchakarma cleansing process, but that doesn’t make it any less uncomfortable.

While meditating, I was suddenly drawn to some notes I had written several months ago, while still at home in Israel.  And the one file I was drawn to, was actually written exactly 4 years ago, in Rishikesh, ON THIS EXACT DATE: February 22nd!!

This could not be coincidence, and so have decided to post it once again.  This issue of “seekers” has come up many times during this trip, and I once again had need to relate to the issue from my personal point of view.  The channeling below was exactly what I needed to hear, once again, to encourage me to always move forward in the way I feel is best for me.  I do my utmost to do that, but there are times when we need supportive words….I have been lovingly given these words again and share them here with you.

 

…find myself always being different from the travelers I meet. In McLeod, I am one of the few people who spend any length of time there who is not either an aspiring or already practicing Buddhist. Now I find in Rishikesh that I am the only person I’ve met so far who is not either looking for the perfect Yoga teacher, the Swami who will bring them enlightenment, the perfect Ayurveda doctor or the ultimate massage. Everyone seems to be searching for something…on some kind of pilgrimage…where is the best puja on the Ganga, the best Thali, the best mountain trail, the most beautiful temple. I find no need for any of these things and began to wonder if something is wrong with me. am I just too lazy to bother?

Or is it something deeper…and then I woke up to meditate and my guides came to me really loud and clear for the first time in many many months and the following was said:

You are neither practicing Buddhist in Dharamsala nor yoga student in Rishikesh. You are not a seeker. Others are seeking. YOU KNOW. Relax into that KNOWING. JUST BE.

Your only quest is inward. Everything you need is already there. The place is unimportant…it is just a means for you to easily access what is already KNOWN to you.

Relax into it. Let it flow.

You are blessed…We love You.

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Understanding Loss – Part 3 – An Exercise in Remembering, Forgiving and Release

I have been doing much work going through this process mentioned in the two previous posts here from India, and find that most of my insights are much too personal for me to easily share them.  Much is painful, much is insightful leading to understanding which in turn leads to forgiveness and release, and this is extremely cathartic. I would like to share one of the exercises I have been guided to do, and which I found extremely cleansing, as long as I was completely honest with myself in performing the exercise.  Meaning, no expectations, no preconceived idea about the outcome,etc.  Total honesty.  This is not as easy as it sounds and I found myself stopping myself several times to get back to the place of honesty before continuing.

It is actually fairly simple sounding to do.  But a very good way of releasing lingering negativity regarding loved ones who have passed over.   As the passing which prompted the process in the first place was that of my mother, I began the exercise with her, but soon found myself working with my father as well.

Simply go back into your memory “bank”, looking for the earliest “deposits” you can find, and see how many pleasant and joyful recollections you have and how many unpleasant or painful ones you have in regard to the person you are working with at the moment. At first it may seem one sided, in either direction.  Do not judge or take things personally.  Do your best to be objective about what you are reliving. Ever so slowly, more and more “deposits” will surface, each becoming more and more clear and detailed.  This maybe be painful, may cause you anger or regret, may be joyful, may even be surprising…just let it all flow. Try not to “be” yourself as the child you were in each memory (or even adult-doesn’t matter), but rather see each event unfold as an impartial observer.When you feel there are no more memories left in the “bank” to review, simply ask that all be released back to the Universe as energies of love and light, send unconditional love to the person who has passed, as well as to yourself, and feel the deep sense of lightness this process has given you…cleansing, forgiveness and closure.

I am completely surprised at how the process has been working for me, especially at the intensity of the memories once they began to reveal themselves.  Also surprised at the types of memories which arose.  At first, the most powerful ones were kind of what I expected to find when dealing with a particular person, but slowly, the expectations became less, as did the preconceptions, and many other types of memories surfaced.  This is why I ask you to at least try to commence this exercise from a place of neutrality and non-judgement, with no expectations, if at all possible.

I’d love to hear from anyone who decides to try this…I am finding it extremely interesting as I continue working with it, and find it bringing me lovely feelings of release and lightness.

With love light and JOY

Jane

 

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December 31, 2010 – India – Understanding Loss Part 2

The days move along and although the weather here has turned from clear to cloudy, my own inner “weather” is getting brighter and clearer with each day.  I woke up very early this morning from an intense dream sequence, with the following insight and further clarity into the issue of redefining myself after loss.

Just an aside here…I also realized that in addition to the losses mentioned in the previous post, there was another situation of loss over that short 6 month period, one no less cutting and painful than the loss of my Mother or my love.  I had traveled back to the States after a 37 year absence, never expecting to find the intense emotional upheaval which was the result of this visit.  What I understood during my visit, was that I had lost something over all those years which I had never considered as something that COULD be lost, because I never thought of my life with, or without it.  I was content with my family and friends in my new country and never once regretted having left home for a foreign land.

But it seems as if this was a mistake.  I realized while there, and am now feeling the effects months later, that when I chose to leave the States, what I lost was my original family!!  Dear cousins. Aunts and uncles, who were always an intense part of my life while I lived there, even though I never realized it.  And of course rediscovery of  a beautiful sibling relationship was no less powerful.  This loss is something which can never be recovered, and the deep pain I feel inside at realizing this, is something which I doubt I will ever come to terms with.  I spent deeply rewarding and beautiful hours, as well as deeply painful ones, with a few very special people there who know who they are, rediscovering myself, and even discovering for the first times parts of self.  And now having reconnected with this “original family” , I find myself feeling the loss of it every single day.

And now back to this morning.  My phone is still not working but I am sure this is part of the plan. Instead of talking to people and making plans for visiting, taking trips, etc., in addition to the overcast weather, it is easier for me to move inward and begin working there. I am not completely at peace with this idea right now and have been wondering for the past couple of days what I am afraid of finding there. I have asked in my prayers and meditation over the past couple of days to be able to release any fears I have regarding this process as well as expectations as to how it will move forward. Just allow it to flow.  The overcast weather puts a further damper on my spirits but again is an incentive to stay close to home and go inward.

And then the insights of this morning…regarding redefining roles with the death of parents.  When our parents are gone, WE become the family “elder”.  We have to be careful not to allow this to color the way we picture ourselves.

Let me explain:  I do not become suddenly “old” because I become and “elder”. My Indian friend reminded me of this yesterday. I was sitting at her house feeling really down and said “ I feel like an old lady this trip – tired, no energy, etc.”  She said that when our parents are alive we can still feel young but when they are gone we begin to “be old”.  It was a very clever thing to say and a wake up call for me to really begin thinking about what thoughts I have been having, what I have been saying verbally, without realizing it, and how deeply they have been effecting me on all levels, including physical!  Just more food for thought along the way.

I realized that I need to get back in touch with my free spirit, with the child inside me.  It is still there, still alive.  It did not die along with my Mother! I have a lot of work to do and believe the panchakarma, which I begin on Monday, will help in this process as well.

And then I gratefully began my morning meditation, which revealed further issues…the things I was afraid of discovering…the emotions and feelings which I do not like to believe I am capable of:  And what surfaced were feelings of anger, guilt and deep sadness, as well as regret.  I called upon Archangel Michael, who is a powerful remover of negativity, to do a cleansing both inside me on all levels, as well as in my aura, to remove all of these negative emotions, wherever they may be blocked, and any others that I may not be aware of,  to release them back as energies of love and light and then to fill me with pure white light of love, joy, healing, and contentment and to help me move forward in complete freedom from fear..

I am feeling lighter and less troubled as I sit and write this, and grateful for all the love and blessings I receive each and every day.

With love light and JOY

Jane

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UNDERSTANDING LOSS

 

This has been an extremely difficult year for me, beginning with my early return from India in January.  I felt increasingly burdened, heavy, seemed to have lost my”light” and my “lightness”, and not really understanding why or how to move past it.

It wasn’t until today, a full 11 months after my return home from India that I had my AHA! Moment and figured it out.  And like all of these magical moments, it came to me during a powerful prayer and meditation session.

Without realizing it, I have been living through a year filled with great loss, and not only have I not honestly grieved for it, I had not understood that personal loss requires us to redefine ourselves and our purpose, our being, in the new placed, the new reality, we find ourselves in AFTER our loss.

And for me, again without realizing it, I have been through TWO intense losses within the same 6 month period – something which obviously is not simple. Or easy to come to terms with.

Finding myself moving along with “life as usual” after both losses, I imagined I had done just that, while in effect I had simply ignored the need for grieving, burying it in a “safe” place inside and feeling that all was well with me and my world, seeing as how I was coping so well.

Turns out, I was not coping at all, just living in denial, and it was taking its toll on my.  I never realized that the enormous heaviness I was feeling, the lack of energy, was due to the fact that I was physically carrying these losses with me, rather than releasing them in healthy ways.

I lost my mother this past year, and was stunned by the impact on me of her loss.  Since it is only in the past 10 years that I have any sort of loving relationship with my mother, I honestly did not think I would “miss” her.  Turns out, I miss her every day, in many subtle ways.  This took me my surprise completely.  The fact that I also lost my role as someone’s child, in effect becoming an orphan (as my father had already passed several years ago), I lost another part of “who I am” when I lost my mother.

In addition, I both found (for the first time) and lost, a true love.  I will not go into details but will simply say that everything I ever imagined, everything I ever prayed for, manifested,  and understood true love to be, was what I found in this short-lived relationship, and loosing it had a much deeper effect on me than I realized until just this morning. And once again, there was no grieving, just moving forward, adding another weight to the heaviness already inside of me.

Since I have arrived in India, just a little over a week ago,  these well buried “treasures” have been slowly seeping out of their hiding places , begging to be relasesd, but my still not “getting it”.

When in India, my Mother would always send me a daily e-mail, and I found myself sad, disappointed, even angry, that whenever I checked my mail at the internet café, this was not waiting for me. And all of my well-meaning friends here have been asking about my love, this wonderful man they had heard about, only to be told it is a story I would rather not talk about, and tears, ending the conversations. I was completely taken by surprise at these feelings of grief and grieving that arose in me.

What I realized this morning, the AHA! Which was Divinely and lovingly sent to me, was that this is the purpose of my stay here this time.  To process these losses, to release them in a true and proper grieving, to allow myself the luxury of feeling and crying and then moving into my new reality once again, lighter, and full of light.

At the end of the meditation, something else was “returned” to me after a whole year of being absent – my voice! Let me explain – there is a beautiful chant which I began repeating at the end of each meditation about 2 years ago, it is in Hebrew and I learned it from a teacher, Naomi, who taught me the beauties of Hatmara.  Loosely translated it means:  “I am light, love and joy” and it is sung in a haunting, deeply moving melody.  Every morning, while chanting this outloud, in full voice (it is the ONLY thing ever in my life which I could sing on tune), I was filled with enormous amounts of light, love and joy to move with me through each day. I have not been able to chant this since the day my mother passed away!!  I tried many times but the voice was not there…I could not sing/chant, these loving words outloud, or even say them silently.

This morning, I found my voice once again, and after a chanting, my eyes releasing great tears of joy throughout, I had a new sense of well-being and “rightness”  for the first time in  so long

I have  now understood that this is  a process with more than one step…an ongoing process, which, among other things, requires me to redefine myself in my new reality.

Accept the new reality, release ALL feelings,-including the “not nice” ones which, among others, include anger-and then joyfully move forward.

I sit here now with a new sense of contentment – now ready to begin the work of acceptance and self-definiton with a joyful heart.

I am truly blessed

Jane

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So, you know I’ve been guided to choose a random post each day and somehow am supposed to be posting to Facebook. Still working on understanding that!
However, the past two days I began choosing a random post myself by looking at the categories on my blog’s sidebar and intuitively choosing something.
Just now, I was browsing through my own blog’s home page and came across a tab on the top called “blog Info” with a drop down tab. Never even noticed it before. Clicked the drop down arrow, and what is the first item of choice available? You guessed it:
RANDOM POST!. I clicked it and was taken to a post which was already chosen for me for reasons only the Higher Powers would know. Pretty much like choosing a random card from the deck to received the necessary message at the moment.
So everything has been taken care of for me in this new venture, and I will keep you updated. If you are curious which random post came up now – here it is:

Prayers and Answers

With love light and JOY
Jane

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