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Seekers and Knowers

I have had a terrible head cold the past two days and have had great difficulty sleeping, so have been meditating and just “being”, not trying to force anything, and doing my best to accept my current “no so pleasant” health condition.  I know it is part of the panchakarma cleansing process, but that doesn’t make it any less uncomfortable.

While meditating, I was suddenly drawn to some notes I had written several months ago, while still at home in Israel.  And the one file I was drawn to, was actually written exactly 4 years ago, in Rishikesh, ON THIS EXACT DATE: February 22nd!!

This could not be coincidence, and so have decided to post it once again.  This issue of “seekers” has come up many times during this trip, and I once again had need to relate to the issue from my personal point of view.  The channeling below was exactly what I needed to hear, once again, to encourage me to always move forward in the way I feel is best for me.  I do my utmost to do that, but there are times when we need supportive words….I have been lovingly given these words again and share them here with you.

 

…find myself always being different from the travelers I meet. In McLeod, I am one of the few people who spend any length of time there who is not either an aspiring or already practicing Buddhist. Now I find in Rishikesh that I am the only person I’ve met so far who is not either looking for the perfect Yoga teacher, the Swami who will bring them enlightenment, the perfect Ayurveda doctor or the ultimate massage. Everyone seems to be searching for something…on some kind of pilgrimage…where is the best puja on the Ganga, the best Thali, the best mountain trail, the most beautiful temple. I find no need for any of these things and began to wonder if something is wrong with me. am I just too lazy to bother?

Or is it something deeper…and then I woke up to meditate and my guides came to me really loud and clear for the first time in many many months and the following was said:

You are neither practicing Buddhist in Dharamsala nor yoga student in Rishikesh. You are not a seeker. Others are seeking. YOU KNOW. Relax into that KNOWING. JUST BE.

Your only quest is inward. Everything you need is already there. The place is unimportant…it is just a means for you to easily access what is already KNOWN to you.

Relax into it. Let it flow.

You are blessed…We love You.

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December 31, 2010 – India – Understanding Loss Part 2

The days move along and although the weather here has turned from clear to cloudy, my own inner “weather” is getting brighter and clearer with each day.  I woke up very early this morning from an intense dream sequence, with the following insight and further clarity into the issue of redefining myself after loss.

Just an aside here…I also realized that in addition to the losses mentioned in the previous post, there was another situation of loss over that short 6 month period, one no less cutting and painful than the loss of my Mother or my love.  I had traveled back to the States after a 37 year absence, never expecting to find the intense emotional upheaval which was the result of this visit.  What I understood during my visit, was that I had lost something over all those years which I had never considered as something that COULD be lost, because I never thought of my life with, or without it.  I was content with my family and friends in my new country and never once regretted having left home for a foreign land.

But it seems as if this was a mistake.  I realized while there, and am now feeling the effects months later, that when I chose to leave the States, what I lost was my original family!!  Dear cousins. Aunts and uncles, who were always an intense part of my life while I lived there, even though I never realized it.  And of course rediscovery of  a beautiful sibling relationship was no less powerful.  This loss is something which can never be recovered, and the deep pain I feel inside at realizing this, is something which I doubt I will ever come to terms with.  I spent deeply rewarding and beautiful hours, as well as deeply painful ones, with a few very special people there who know who they are, rediscovering myself, and even discovering for the first times parts of self.  And now having reconnected with this “original family” , I find myself feeling the loss of it every single day.

And now back to this morning.  My phone is still not working but I am sure this is part of the plan. Instead of talking to people and making plans for visiting, taking trips, etc., in addition to the overcast weather, it is easier for me to move inward and begin working there. I am not completely at peace with this idea right now and have been wondering for the past couple of days what I am afraid of finding there. I have asked in my prayers and meditation over the past couple of days to be able to release any fears I have regarding this process as well as expectations as to how it will move forward. Just allow it to flow.  The overcast weather puts a further damper on my spirits but again is an incentive to stay close to home and go inward.

And then the insights of this morning…regarding redefining roles with the death of parents.  When our parents are gone, WE become the family “elder”.  We have to be careful not to allow this to color the way we picture ourselves.

Let me explain:  I do not become suddenly “old” because I become and “elder”. My Indian friend reminded me of this yesterday. I was sitting at her house feeling really down and said “ I feel like an old lady this trip – tired, no energy, etc.”  She said that when our parents are alive we can still feel young but when they are gone we begin to “be old”.  It was a very clever thing to say and a wake up call for me to really begin thinking about what thoughts I have been having, what I have been saying verbally, without realizing it, and how deeply they have been effecting me on all levels, including physical!  Just more food for thought along the way.

I realized that I need to get back in touch with my free spirit, with the child inside me.  It is still there, still alive.  It did not die along with my Mother! I have a lot of work to do and believe the panchakarma, which I begin on Monday, will help in this process as well.

And then I gratefully began my morning meditation, which revealed further issues…the things I was afraid of discovering…the emotions and feelings which I do not like to believe I am capable of:  And what surfaced were feelings of anger, guilt and deep sadness, as well as regret.  I called upon Archangel Michael, who is a powerful remover of negativity, to do a cleansing both inside me on all levels, as well as in my aura, to remove all of these negative emotions, wherever they may be blocked, and any others that I may not be aware of,  to release them back as energies of love and light and then to fill me with pure white light of love, joy, healing, and contentment and to help me move forward in complete freedom from fear..

I am feeling lighter and less troubled as I sit and write this, and grateful for all the love and blessings I receive each and every day.

With love light and JOY

Jane

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December 20, 2009 – Long Time in Getting this Written

The first book I read in India this year was: The Bridge Across Forever – a love story written by Richard Bach, the author of Jonathan Livingston Seagull (which I never read). The story is described as follows on the back of the book: “If you’ve ever felt alone in a world of strangers, missing someone you’ve never met, you’ll find a message from your love in THE BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER”. I found this book the first day I went down to the bookshop, and having nothing else to read, picked it up eagerly, but not expecting anything more than a soppy love story (which I admit that I love).
I had just about begun the book when the messages began coming to me, as if the book were speaking directly to me, on a personal level. It is only now, after understanding with crystal clarity where this was all leading, that I am finally getting around to post this, but the thoughts were put down on paper over 2 months ago. This was the beginning of (more…)

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November 15, 2008 – The Second Message in a Dream and a New Poem

Going with the Flow

Going with the Flow

I continue to have vivid dreams which stay with me after waking up. Last night I had a very long dream but the main part involved my taking a journey in a canoe on a body of quiet water, seemingly with no current. And have no paddles. I was just gently moved along by an unknown force to wherever it was I had to get to. that also unknown to me. But I felt myself, in the dream, completely at peace and enjoying the journey (water plays a big role in many of my messages, and my poetry as well (see poetry page on upper toolbar as well as the poem at the end of this post which I wrote one day sitting along the Ganga).

When I finally got to a place where I met other people., including Kobi, my car mechanic (!), I found myself welcomed by all and feeling at home. Don’t know where I was and even found my car which was sparkling clean both inside and out – including all mechanical parts – spotless – like brand new. Kobi said he had nothing to do with the change…it arrived here like that [new car? Or just a message that a solution to the car issue is already in place at the end of whatever this journey is?]

More details:
The canoe was made of soft material, almost enveloping me but still keeping the physical form of a canoe while being flexible enough to bend and move with the flow of the water. Even able to shield me from getting wet when there were splashes of water along the journey. Bending its nose left and right to go around bends…and me just sitting there completely at ease all the time.

There are lots of interpretations for this dream, and one could simply be a message about my car problem, or just a message telling me that I am being gently moved along and protected through my journey wherever it is taking me…and to allow myself to gently flow with it… or Dr. Arora’s interpretation which I also like.

The beautiful clean car, sparkling like new, including all internal mechanical parts, simply represents my body, inside and out, after the cleansing and rejuvenation of panchakarma!!

And that’s it for this dream.

And here is the latest “water poem”:

Sound – flowing, moving with it the sacred energies of Ma Ganga.
Sound – vibrating and cleansing with its subtle but powerful rhythm.
Water – rushing over rocks, its voice vitalizing the languid flow of the river.
Water – transforming forceful turmoil into calm serenity to my soul.

Calming the chattering of my mind and bringing a hypnotic tranquility

going-with-the-flow21Love
Jane

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November 9, 2008 – Further Insights and Final Cleansing Of Past Issues

Sun Setting on the Past

Sun Setting on the Past

The process continues…(Please read the previous post if you have not already done so to understand this one)…it is now the next day and have had many more insights – some I will keep for my private journals, but will share enough to allow others to gain insights from this as well.

This morning came a full disclosure to myself. What was revealed to me after 23 years of being completely unaware of these feelings and issues! Really full understanding of what I haven’t admitted to myself all these years. I would have wanted more than anything else to have stayed married – but I was not given the opportunity or option. Instead of working WITH me to help me at the time I most needed it, he did everything possible to push me further and further away. The person I had taken care of so lovingly for over 20 years, who I had never asked anything of – attuning myself to his needs in all things – had deserted me in my time of deepest need. Cruelly pushing me away in every way possible when he should have been protecting and cherishing me – helping me to move through my Dark Night. While I desperately clung to hope as a drowning victim does to a life raft, he pulled this from my grip as well, leaving me to go under along – slowly sinking. I was forced to rip apart a family which would never fully recover the wounds inflicted on it – as a unit and as individuals.

I am sure I could have gotten to the same place in my life that I am today WITHOUT having to break up my home, if he had only been willing and able to work along with me for a few years until I found my path. I COULD have done it differently if I had been given the opportunity. And I now know that this frustration, so long repressed was what caused this anger to well up in me after being held back by illusion for so many years. . This realization is a cause for profound sadness and grief– but I will move forward. What’s done is done and there is a reason for this as well. That reason is still to be discovered! I will do my best to be patient but I joyfully look forward to finding out what it is!

It is important to understand that I am not seeking to “place blame”, for there is no place for that in our lives. Just coming to terms with these hidden issues, and releasing them, is all that is necessary. And I have done that completely…feeling light and at peace with myself and everyone else connected with these issues. It is a true blessing!

There will be one more post with a truly lovely dream which reflects this final cleansing on all levels, but will leave that for a separate post.

Love
Jane

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Nov. 7. 2008 – Panchakarma – Day 15 – Beyond the Physical – Rude Awakening to the Reality of My Past

Lovely Forest Road

Lovely Forest Road

I woke this morning after another night of strange dreams, which I’ve been having for some days now, but never thought to connect them to the panchakarma, even though the doctor mentioned that I may begin cleansing through dreams as well. The dreams, even before coming to India, for many months now, have had recurrent themes revolving around my ex-husband, mother-in-law, etc., in situations of varying degrees of absurdity that only dreams can bring about.

But this morning I had an extremely powerful AHA! Moment. I had woken up with the deep need to reread the memoirs I had begun outlining for myself almost 5 years ago. For the past 4 years I have not written a word. I have not felt the inclination to write again over all these past 4 years, and sitting here today, in my room in India, reading the previous entries, has triggered a thought process which may seem overdue, but, as I so well know, is beginning exactly at the time when it should for my Higher Good. It has occurred to me several times over the past years that I really should get back to writing about my journey inward, but I could never seem to find the inspiration to pick up pen and paper. While reading I felt as if I was reading something penned by a stranger, and yet at the same time by someone I knew intimately. An extremely strange perception to say the least.

When I went the clinic this morning the first thing I did was discuss this with the doctor and ask if the detox process of panchakarma goes beyond the physical, and he said “obviously”. He was quite pleased to hear what is happening with me as most of his clients fight this in depth part of the process and prefer to remain purely in the “physical”…this would of course render complete detox impossible, as we are much more than just the physical. A powerful catharsis has begun and panchakarma is the (more…)

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I would like to apologize to everyone who follows this blog regularly for the lack of posts, but as I mentioned, I am in India for an extended visit.

However, as usual, on these journeys, amazing things open up for me, and I’d like to direct you to the India Journal where you might find some interesting things to read.

If you are interested in my Panchakarma treatments, check the sidebar where there are categories listed and check out the “treatments” category for daily posts regarding the treatment and the results.

If you are interested in other things which are occuring to me on all levels, check out the topics which interest you.

I’d like to draw your special attention to two posts re: channelings I’ve received so far: First Channeling

and this one, even more interesting…I have not noted the details in the post but it is the first time I have EVER received a request to pass a “message” on to a third party!! You can read about it : here

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