Archive for April, 2009

Sometimes you have to get lost to find your way.

I went to sleep last night with a general feeling of being at “loose ends” and with the earlier feelings of anger, frustration, fear and worry and not being able to wholly reconcile them as being related to dealings with the insurance companies. So before going to sleep I asked for direction and purpose – I have not written for a very long time and feeling the need to “find my way” again. I woke at 5 AM with the vivid scenes from a dream still in my head, and realized that the dream, the book I began reading 2 days ago, and the new understandings written about regarding my feelings and reactions in my earlier post of today, are all connected to the quote from the book by Cecelia Ahern in my last post which deals with getting lost in order to be found. Nothing in this life is by chance, but putting it all together into a big picture, is not always easy.

In the dream I was driving my car (which I also sold TODAY – once I released my fear of NOT being able to sell it!), and the road was undergoing major construction. I was so busy watching the messed up road in order to avoid obstacles, paying attention to what was wrong and focusing all my attention on the technical driving, that I did not really notice where I was going and when I finally did, I was completely lost and very far from the place I had intended to arrive at when I began my journey.

I thought about this as I came fully awake, and realized this was not necessarily a bad thing that had happened in the dream. It also is directly related to the book I am now reading: “Three Cups of Tea” by Greg Mortenson (one man’s mission to promote peace…one school at a time), as well as the quote in this recent post about getting lost:
(click here to follow link) LOST AND FOUND

In the beginning of the book, Mortenson describes his being so engrossed in the technicalities of his failed attempt to reach the summit of K2 – second highest peak in the world – that he never saw the truely amazing beauty of the landscape. Only after getting lost and almost dying did he take the time to see the big picture, and this getting lost and allowing himself to be “found” in an entirely unexpected place is what lead him to find his true life’s purpose.

So, when things seem to be going wrong, when it seems that obstacle after obstacle is blocking your chosen path, perhaps it is time to allow yourself to “get lost”, to relax into the confusion, and eventually find yourself moving along freely and joyfully on an entirely different path than you originally planned to follow. Life is full of miracles if we just let them happen!

Below a few favorite quotes related to the above:

In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
– Janos Arany

“If you take your eyes off your goals,
all you see are obstacles.”

Don’t wait for your ship to come in. Row out to meet it.

There ain’t no cloud so thick that the sun ain’t shinin’ on t’other side.
– Rattlesnake, an 1870s mountain man

Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.
– Will Rogers

One of the secrets of life is to make stepping-stones out of stumbling blocks.
– Jack Penn




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Back to Reality and Dealing with Negative Feelings

Anger, frustration, fear, worry – they do come – we are only human. The question is what to do with these feelings when they arise. This is a question I was confronted with just a couple of days ago, just one month after coming home from India. After many months of being relatively free of negative feelings, I found myself swamped in them after spending several frustrating hours dealing with insurance companies regarding a claim following someone running into my car from behind while my daughter was driving. This happened a couple of months ago while I was in India, and until now the money has not been paid to me to cover the repairs. I found myself in an extremely difficult place – with feelings that I hadn’t experienced for a long time – and was at a loss about what to do regarding my reaction to the situation. Remember, we are always responsible for the way we feel and so these feelings of anger, frustration, fear and worry were not what was upsetting me, but the fact that I allowed myself to react in a way which allowed these feelings to arise in the first place.

So again…what to do? Well, it took me awhile, but I realized that first of all, the feelings must be validated, allowed to BE, and not buried. Allow them their own freedom to exist – find out where they are coming from and then move past them back to the balanced place. If doing this involves a day or two of sleeping a lot, or playing computer games, of not meditating and doing yoga, don’t beat myself up about it. Allow myself the luxury of succumbing once in awhile. The downs only make the highs easier relish, appreciate and be grateful for!

The relapses into bad times have a place in our lives and as such, are just as much a blessing as the so-called “good” stuff. In the end, EVERYTHING is good, and FOR our own Higher Good. So once again I give thanks to God and the loving Universe for my many blessings, even when it takes me awhile to become aware of them.


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I have been home from India just a little over a week and will get back to regular posting right after the Passover Holiday, but I would just like to leave you with a quote from a book I recently read…just some food for thought regarding where we are, where we would like to be and what can happen along the way. Let me know what you think:

We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it’s easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found.

Cecelia Ahern “A Place Called Here”

Chag Sameach
Happy Passover

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